A Big Fat Braindump – Life Update

Nothing major is going on but at the same time life has been very different this past few months. I feel like I am in a weird transitional phase of life. My brain is so crowded with all these thoughts, I cannot sit down and write a blog post about fashion or anything else for that matter. For my sake, I need to write this post, get everything out of my system, and then I think I will be feeling a lot more motivated and inspired to write more blog posts.

Just like every season in life, there is good and not so good. My biggest struggle at the moment is work, and more than work, career. I started looking for jobs in early October and I would say I was actively searching for the whole month (which I know isn’t that long) but it, unfortunately, lead nowhere. I found (or shall I say it found me) a very small, part-time job, early November and I am so grateful for that. I feel like I got really lucky with that job and I don’t want to take it for granted. Getting that job felt like a breath of fresh air so I was in high spirits, however, with COVID, that didn’t last long. I was only looking for work for about a month but things just weren’t looking up. I stopped looking for more work mid-November because -for anyone that doesn’t know I am a ballet teacher- I felt like there was no work available for me anywhere. Alex and I started considering renting out a gym studio and setting up some baby ballet classes to start fresh in January. Comes December 1st gyms closed down and they are still closed as of the end of January. All dance schools closed along with them and just in general any work ideas I had in mind suddenly sounded ‘bad’ and just unachievable.

As of right now, this has been my biggest struggle and the only thing that has been keeping me going (mentally) are my online classes. So I am very grateful for them. End of October I had the idea out of nowhere to set up some online classes. I was home all day, looking for work, and I thought I have all this free time, how can I do something with it?! And that’s where the idea came to start teaching some online classes from my living room. I don’t know what people are thinking when they ask me “Do you have lots of students?”. I have no social connections, I am totally starting from scratch, so no I don’t. And honestly, I am okay with it. I am proud of myself for deciding to do something with my free time and with the resources I had. I am proud that I am always there to teach my classes even if sometimes it’s just to teach my mum or my sister. I truly enjoy all the classes I teach and I know there are people out there that would enjoy them too, if they tried them out. Even though the classes haven’t been providing that much income, they have been keeping me sane. They keep me motivated, keep my body and mind going and I am not planning on stopping them any time soon. If you have joined any of my classes and are reading this post right now I want to say a HUGE thank you. Just joining one class shows so much support and I honestly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

*If you want to find out any more information on the classes I am teaching you can click here and you will find everything you need on my Dance Instagram.*

Another pain in the butt has been… the wedding. COVID is (once again) making everything so much more complicated than it needs to be. Nothing is really in our control at the moment which is very frustrating. I could go on and on about the whole wedding situation but I am saving my energy for a future post. End of February you will get to read the second post from the Wedding Diaries series and there I will have the full wedding update up to that point (which will hopefully be a little better than the updates, or the lack thereof, I have right now. Honestly though I wouldn’t hold my breath).

Besides the work challenges, life is still good. I am really liking the city I live in, our flat 100% feels like home, I am so glad I am living so much closer to family and I can actually see them whenever I want (besides now that we’re in lockdown lol). Even though life in England was a little more secure (because I did have a job), I still wouldn’t change anything. I am so happy we moved back here and even though I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel I have to give myself time. I try to stay positive while waiting out the storm and I try to remind myself that this will not be my situation forever. Things will eventually start looking up.

Thank you so much for reading my rumble, I must admit I feel a lot better now.

Outfit Details:
Dress/Overalls – Stradivarius
Top – H&M
Tights – Calzedonia
Jacket – Zara
Boots – Stradivarius
Bag – Parfois


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