Where do I begin… this year has been crazy for all of us. I think most people would agree that it didn’t go as planned and no one could have expected this turn of events. A big part of this year has been very bluh but just like everything in life, it also had its good moments. For a sold three-months out of this year, I was at home, in lockdown. I actually had a pretty good time, I felt my creativity coming back to me, I felt my brain waking up, and of course I started taking more ballet classes (yes, in my studio apartment) which was so good.
Looking back at 2020 I feel like it went by so fast. Sure it wasn’t the best year ever, but honestly, for me, it wasn’t bad. The most important thing that happened to me this year was moving back home. I had lived in the U.K. for five years and this September Alex and I finally moved back to Cyprus, together. It was a big and scary step so I am so proud of us for going through with it, especially during such a hectic time.
I don’t want to look back and remember 2020 as a shitty year. This year has been so eventful and so full (and empty at the same time lol) and this is something I want to take advantage of. I want to take everything this year has taught me and put it into practice.
First of all, this year has taught me so much about time! You have to make time in your day/week to do the things you want to do. I am sure this hasn’t been the case for everyone but this is how it happened for me… During the lockdown, I had the realisation that in a day I have all the time I want, depending on how I choose to use it. I was furloughed so I was home all day, for three months. Often times I would get up really late, not do any of my usual morning habits, stay in my pyjamas and sit on the couch watching TV for hours. On those days I felt like crap. My day would go by so fast, before I could blink it was nighttime already and I would just feel like I simply wasted a whole day from my life. However, on the days I did follow my morning routine, washed my face, brushed my hair, made myself a to-do list, and gave myself things to do, I felt like I had so much more time. I would pick up the house, clean, do laundry, take a ballet class, stretch, watch a movie, cook, take a nap and draw for an hour+, all in the same day! You always have 24 hours in a day, the trick is how you choose to use them.
I stopped shopping as much. Since the beginning of the year, I started saving in preparation for our move, and then with COVID and being furloughed, etc., shopping really was the last thing on my priority list. I really liked shopping and don’t get me wrong I still do, but I honestly feel like it doesn’t “excite” me nearly as much now. Perhaps I have become less materialistic (which is always something I want to keep working on, I don’t want ‘things’ to have any control over my life). The idea of going online and shopping used to get me so excited but now A) I have more important things t spend my money on and B) I get excited when I get to go for a coffee with my best friend and when Alex and I push the couches together in the living room and have a movie night. Not to say that those things didn’t make me happy before, but I just think that this year has really turned me more into an adult (in some ways) and has really put things into perspective for me. I almost feel liberated that I don’t get that feeling when I am shopping anymore. Perhaps I was a bit of a shopaholic?! Probably at the early stages haha.
In terms of ballet, I learned there are no more excuses. If you truly want to do something, you just do it with what you have. After graduating from university I basically never had the chance to spend time in a studio to just do my own thing. Whenever I was in a studio it was for work aka to teach. Quarantine taught me that when you don’t have a studio, you don’t just stop taking classes. You take a class in your living room. It’s not the best (or safest) environment to take a class in but it’s better than nothing! You have to use what you have even if it is a chair for a barre and cold hard tiles for the floor.
This year I also learned that there rarely is a perfect time to do something. Do all the planning and preparation that you can do and don’t worry about things that are out of your control. You just have to work hard on everything you have control over and then you just have to have faith.
2020 really just felt like a slap across the face that we all needed deep down. I feel like it woke us up and made us rethink our priorities in life. This year taught me a number of things and it has certainly also taught me a lot about money. I hope that I will forever remember everything that I have learend in 2020 and not repeat any of the mistakes I used to make. Remember life is like a roller coaster and if the lows have been low, the highs will be even higher in the future. Thank you 2020 & Goodbye.